Who am I?
This is the question I have been asking myself for the past two months. When you think about who you are, what comes to mind? For me it was Britanee, a child of God. It was simple, sweet, and true. I started thinking about God and how creative he is. I quickly came to realize that it was definitely not what God has to say about me. We worship a God who created everything in this world, how can we be okay with thinking God looks at us and just says, “you are Britanee” and that is it?
Two months ago I attended a worship night we have at my church called Awaken. It was that night that my leader asked me a question.
“Britanee, who are you?”
I stumbled for a second and then it was easy. I responded with, “well… I am Britanee.”
I remember walking away and being so challenged by that. I went back to my seat and began to worship. I am a very stubborn person, so I just sat on the ground in the middle of worship and told God, “I am not leaving this place until you tell me who I am.” I sat there for a while and continued to worship. I just sat in his presence and he answered with one word. I was a little surprised and confused with what God had said, so I got up and went home. I continued praying about it in the few weeks following. I was so discouraged and thinking, “God that is not who I am at all…that makes no sense.”
I started meeting with my leaders more frequently as we started to dig into identity. We began talking a lot about people in the bible, like Gideon. God calls him by his name. Gideon is a mighty man of valor. We started to examine a few more people and came to realize God calls everyone by a name Jeremiah…a prophet to the nations. When we think about ourselves and what God is calling us to do, do we just think it’s something simple or do we think it is something great? Do we believe that God has formed us in the womb and he has a call on our life? Are we okay with believing that we have no purpose or calling in life? For sometime now I have known what God has been calling me to do. I know I am supposed to work with foster kids and at risk youth.
Knowing the call on my life was never an issue for me. The issue was that I had no idea how to go about it and had little belief in my capability. It’s not just about the call you have on your life, it includes everything that God calls on you for in that. God has a reason for you to do a certain thing in your life, but it doesn’t stop there.
We are people like Gideon and Jeremiah. God had a call for them to go and do his work. When he sent them out to go do those things, God called them by a name. The first step we need to take is ask ourselves, do we know what God is calling us to do? If the answer is no, take time to pray about it. If you aren’t sure, put into action that thing you think it may be. If there is fruit coming from it and God is telling you to stay, that’s most likely what is it. Once you have an idea of what God has called you to do, start asking God questions. Start with the basics. These questions we think we know the answer to because they are always talked about in church. When I started this journey I quickly learned I didn’t have the slightest clue of how to answer any of these questions.
To know your identity you need to know God and how he looks at you personally.
Here are a few questions I asked God. I would ask these questions daily to see what else God would say. Take time to pray over these each day and just see what God has for you. One thing to keep in mind is that this may be a very scary process and a lot of fear will quickly creep in, but I promise you that knowing who you are and who God has called you to be will begin to change your whole life. You aren’t going to waste time anymore, you are going to start changing things. You may change where you live, where you work, and maybe even the friends you have. We have to remember that the ultimate goal is to be in the kingdom with our father. Take these steps to find out who you are and go and do what God has called on you for.
- Who am i?
- What is my name?
- What does it mean to be a child of God?
- What does it mean to be made in God’s image?
- Are there any lies i am believing about myself or God?
- What are your greatest fears?
- What are things in my life that i think are more powerful than God?
- What is something/someone in my life right now that produces fear?
- What do i say about myself?
- What does God say about me
- What kind of family did you grow up in?
- Who are people you consider family in your life right now?
- What does it mean to belong to the family of God?
- What does it mean to confess to God?